Weekly Round Up – Week 1

November 24, 2012 by boundlesshaos

If you read my last post, you will know that I recently started writing at Examiner.com. I am still gaining readers and decided to do a weekly roundup on my blog. This will be my first post for this ongoing event. So, please take the time to read my articles and share them with your friends!

  1. Will Apple continue to use their own maps? - Google is preparing to submit their new app to be reviewed by Apple. Will they accept it?
  2. Apple deals for Black Friday - Black Friday deals from Target, Walmart, Best Buy and Radio Shack for Apple products.
  3. Did Oprah make a mistake using her iPad? - Oprah was endorsing the new Microsoft Surface tablet but used her iPad to Tweet about it!
  4. Apple has applied for the trademark “iPad Mini” in the U.S. - Apple has finally taken the steps to claim the iPad mini name in the U.S.
  5. Apple is scheduled to reveal Black Friday deals midnight on Friday - This post actually made it to Google News! It is my first article to make it in the top search results!!
  6. iPad comes out on top for Christmas lists - iPad made the top of the list according to a Nielsen Study on 6-12 year old kids in the U.S.
  7. Black Friday for the Apple online store has arrived - A list of the specials Apple had on Black Friday!
  8. The best iPad accessories for Christmas - Here is a list for some great accessories for the iPad!
  9. Apps to make your Christmas shopping easier - Here is a list of useful apps that you can use while you are shopping for Christmas!

Thank you all for your support! If you like what your are reading on my Examiner page, be sure to subscribe to the Richmond iPad HERE and get the delivered right to your inbox!

I also have a Facebook page for the Richmond iPad. You can “like” my page HERE!

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Some Exciting News!

November 15, 2012 by boundlesshaos

So, I not only write  on my blog (when I have time) but I also most recently was given a channel on Examiner.com. I am so excited about this opportunity and I wanted to share it with everyone!

The channel I am writing for is the Richmond iPad Examiner.

I do have experience with Apple products. I worked as a sales represetative for them via chat and learned so much during that period of time. This is also where I gained my love for Apple products.

I have had the iPhone 4 and now it has been handed down to my oldest son. I most recently upgraded to the iPhone 5 and I love it! I also have the iPad 2 and there are not too many places that I don’t go without it. I am an app junkie and love trying out all the newest ones.

So, please take the time and check out my channel over at the Richmond iPad Examiner.

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Thankful November

November 13, 2012 by boundlesshaos

November is a month of thankfulness. Everyone on Facebook is writing something they are thankful for each day in November. I started this whole month of thankfulness but kids got sick and then I got sick and then I just got way too far behind.

No, that doesn’t mean I am not thankful. I just got behind and have had so much other stuff going on that I have not had the chance to catch up.

I have so much to be thankful for. I am thankful for my children. I was blessed with 5 children – 4 boys and 1 girl. And in those 5 children the last two were twins. I am so thankful for my twins. So many people dream of having twins and I was given the chance to actually experience twins. Was it all happy? NO. There were so many rough times but I would not give those up for anything. I could go through and tell you what I am thankful for with each of my 5 kids but that would take up a whole entry. Maybe that will be my next one. Because they are each special in their own way.

I am thankful for my husband. He works so hard to provide for our family. He is a firefighter/EMT and every time he goes to work he takes the chance of risking his life for others. I try not to think of it that way because I would be a nervous wreck but the truth is he does. He volunteers for so many things and even though I get upset because he isn’t always home, it is one of the things that made me fall in love with him. He accepted my two oldest boys from a previous marriage just like they were his own. And they love him so much.

I am thankful that my husband and I have been given second chances. No, we have not always been happy. We have had some rough times but we chose to try to work things out. I am thankful for that. I have lived with depression and anxiety every since I can remember and it is hard to explain it to someone who has never experienced it. He has dealt with a lot with me becuaase of this. I am thankful that he didn’t give up. I know there were times when he thought I didn’t love him because I was so depressed and in my own world but I have loved him just the same since the day we met.

I am thankful that we have a roof over our head and food to eat. We may not have a lot of extra money but when it comes down to it all, the only thing that matters is being together as a family. Yes, I would love to give my children everything they ever wanted and I hope one day we will be able to do that. But right now I am thankful that we have each other.

I am thankful that I am able to go to college online and finally get my degree next year. It is hard juggling housework, kids, homework and trying to work odd end jobs on the computer for just a little extra money but I am thankful that I am able to do it. No, I don’t keep up with the house the best but I try. It is not easy to juggle it all.

I could go on and on about things I am thankful for but these are some things that come to mind first. So many times we are negative and get upset when things don’t go right but we need to remember what we do have. Life is stressful but when we get upset we need to remember all that we have been given.

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For The Love of Zoey

October 9, 2012 by boundlesshaos

I haven’t written about Zoey on here even though she left us back in July. It is a hard thing to talk about and still brings tears to my eyes when I think about her or hear someone say her name.

Zoey Grace

Zoey was my Miniature Schnauzer. She spent almost 5 great years with us. She was one of the best dogs we ever had. She never barked unless something was really wrong. She was here for me when no one else was. She kept me company when my husband was working 24 hour shifts. She sensed I was upset after the twins were born and felt like giving up by staying close by my side. She cuddled with me a little extra when my Grandmother died shortly after the twins were born.

After she died I have felt a lot of regret. I was not able to give her the normal attention I always had before the twins. It made me sad and I have hoped that she didn’t hate me for it. Yes, I know she was just a dog.

Zoey came to live with us on January 1, 2008. She was born September 25, 2007. Zoey was a replacement of sorts because we had to put down our two dogs (a boxer and cocker spaniel) due to being exposed to a rabid skunk. I thought long and hard about her name and decided on Zoey because it meant Life.

She was nothing but a little white ball of fur and was such a loving dog. She took whatever the kids dished out and never complained.

On July 21, 2012, we had been out of town for the day and returned home to find bright yellow stains on the carpet. I thought she had

Zoey Grace

peed on the floor cause she couldn’t hold it with us being gone. Although that was very unusual. The following day, my husband was outside and happened to see her going to the bathroom and noticed that she had bright yellow diarrhea. My first thought was worms for whatever reason. She seemed to be acting fine other than having some diarrhea. Monday and Tuesday she seemed okay as well. Wednesday morning when I went to let her out she just seemed week. After looking at her good I saw her gums were white. I took her right to the vet and he gave her some antibiotics and an IV and told me to force her to take in fluids. I tried that evening to give her water via a syringe. She took it to only throw it back up shortly after. I noticed she was stumbling around at times and almost acted paralyzed. My heart was breaking. I knew something was really wrong. So Thursday morning I rushed her back to the vet because that morning she wasn’t even standing for me. I remember driving her there and just looking at her knowing it wasn’t okay. The vet rushed her right back and told me he was taking over and that it would take a miracle. Her skin and eyes were yellow at this point. My last memory of her was her laying on the exam table looking at me helpless. I could barely hold the tears back or talk. So I mumbled I would call later and left quickly. I called that evening and there was no change. She was not any worse but not any better. I wavered back and forth on going out that evening to just see her and possibly say good bye. I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I regret that. I left her in a strange place and she was so sick. She stayed overnight. I called Friday morning the 27th. The vet informed me through his tears that she didn’t make it. I felt like my world fell down around me. She would never run through the house again or sleep in the bed with me. She was gone.

I did a lot of research while she was sick and found the reason for her sudden sickness. It was a new dog food that she had just started. For legal reasons I cannot reveal the name of the dog food. Her death could have been prevented. She could have been saved. It was my fault I got the new dog food.

As far as dog food goes, I can only tell you to research and read labels. Dog food should not have carbohydrates and corn in them. Dogs were made to eat meat. Their pancreas cannot break down the carbs and corn fast enough. This causes their pancreas to become inflamed and can cause a whole other list of problems. I now feed my dogs dog food that is grain free.

Zoey died from pancreatis. Her pancreas swelled so bad that it stated pushing on her liver causing it to not be able to function. All of this could have been prevented. I am probably going to get comments that say my dogs have never had a problem with this and I feed them this type of food. I can only tell you that sometimes it only takes a week to affect them, others it takes months, some it takes years. It will not bother some dogs at all. They are like people, not everything effects every dog the same.

I have a friend who is having to make a hard decision about her dog due to a sudden illness. It broke my heart and made me decide I needed to finally put into words what happened.

Cora Isabella (Bella)

We did get another Miniature Schnauzer recently. Her name is Cora Isabella. Cora means life. We call her Bella for short. She will never replace Zoey but she has brought joy back to our house. Oddly enough Bella was born the morning of July 27th – the same day Zoey passed away.

Zoey will never be forgotten and will definitely always be in my heart.

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The Weekend is So Close….

October 5, 2012 by boundlesshaos

The weekend is getting closer! I am excited to get a night away with the hubby!

Last weekend we both celebrated our birthdays. We didn’t get time alone though so this weekend we are going to relax and enjoy each other.

We don’t get a lot of alone time with 5 kids! So I am going to soak it up!

My birthday is always a mix of emotions. It happens every year and I don’t know why I let it continue every year. I let it revolve around my father and whether or not he will remember by birthday. I don’t know why I let it bother me so much. I guess there is still this little part of me that has put him on a pedestal that he could never live up to.

There is so much I want to say. I have so much to say about the last year and all I have dealt with. Even though I do not have any family or friends reading this blog – I still don’t feel comfortable writing it here yet.

Maybe I need to guest blog and let all of these emotions out!

Whatever it may be, I want to put it behind me for the weekend and just enjoy my husband.

I keep telling myself – One day at a time…

 

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The Challenges of Special Education

October 3, 2012 by boundlesshaos

Ever since my second oldest son started school, we have struggled with assignments and homework. Four years ago he was diagnosed with ADD. He has been on medication even since and has done okay as long as I have had cooperative teachers. Up until this year I have had teachers that communicated with me well so we could keep him on track.

This year he started middle school and I dreaded it all summer long. I knew that he was going to get lost in the shuffle and the large classes.

I went to his orientation and explained to each teacher that he did have ADD and that he needed help in certain areas. Some of them were very attentive to what I said and some of them told me they would try to remember. When I heard those words I just knew we were in for a battle.

Two weeks into the school year he was failing math but his teacher had not even contacted me to discuss a problem. Luckily I have neighbors who are retired teachers and they asked if he had an IEP in place. Well this is the first time I had ever heard this term. I went to a private school all my life and never had to deal with these issues. So after being well informed, I requested that the school begin the process of getting him an IEP.

I was told how long of a process it was and all the hoops you had to jump through. I felt as if they were trying to discourage me from even starting the process.

Today I had the first meeting to discuss his progress so far this year and see what areas needed adjustment. I left that meeting feeling like I could burst into tears. Two of the teachers were very understanding and were more than willing to work with me any way possible. The other two teachers essentially told me that my son lacked responsibility and was lazy.

This really upset me because I know what I have dealt with him over the last 4 years. It upsets me because I see a child that has extreme low self-esteem and will tell you right up front that he is dumb. It brakes my heart to hear him say this. I try to explain that he just learns differently but he only sees himself as stupid.

So, to hear a teacher say he is irresponsible and lazy makes me upset and mad all at the same time. So today I have been very discouraged in our education system. My son is suffering while they decide if he deserves an IEP. After today, I do not believe that they are going to give him one. I know that I am going to have to appeal it and really fight for it.

I know how my son feels. I have had ADD ever since I can remember. I was not actually diagnosed until this year. All these years I have felt the same things my son feels now. I have always struggled with school and when I decided to go to college last year, I found it a real struggle. I still struggle but I am determined to complete my degree.

After seeing what I had to go through with the first meeting for this IEP evaluation, it has made me realize that if I had dealt with this earlier I would more than likely have followed a career where I could advocate for children like this.

Have any of you had to deal with an IEP? Have you had to fight to get the help your child needs due to a learning disability? I would love to hear your stories!

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Who I Have Become

October 1, 2012 by boundlesshaos

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I haven’t kept up with my blog. I have let it go. I have let a lot of things go. I have lost control over my life.

It is really hard to admit that but it’s true and I must face it if I want to fix it.

I have let myself go. I have become so distanced from everyone.

I cry over everything and think things out way too much.

I panic and make things up in my head that haven’t even happened but I find myself mad about these made up events.

I have become obsessed on whether my husband still loves me. I pick apart all the things he says and somehow make them all negative.

I have become insecure. The bad part is I don’t know how to get that security back.

I have reasons for who I have become. No, I don’t want to put it all out there. I can say there was a level of rus that was broken. No, my husband didn’t cheat on me but on some level I feel betrayed. There are grey areas and I feel this plays a big part in it.

How do I get back to a level of sanity? I really don’t know. I want to but there is still that piece of me that can’t let go, but I am ready to try. I have no one to share all this with. I have no close friends and the ones that I do have don’t want to hear about my problems. Of course they say they do but nobody really wants to hear that. Maybe I talk more than I listen but I crave for friendship.

It has taken my over a year to get to this awful point and I know there is no miracle cure to reverse the last year. I know I have a long road ahead.

I want to Just Be me again.

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I Need To Pick Myself Up….

June 12, 2012 by boundlesshaos

Over the last seven months, I have been slowly going farther and farther down hill. I knew it was happening but I tried to ignore it.

I have fought depression all of my life, but I do not remember ever being this depressed. I don’t know if it is because I ignored it or it is just simply too much for me to handle.

My life has changed so much over the last year. Some of it made me a better person and some of it made me a person that I just don’t like and don’t know how to fix it.

I have slowly gained back all the weight I had lost last year and then some. I weigh more now than I ever have (except when I was pregnant). I know I need to lose the weight but I just can’t find the fight inside me to do it.

My house is a wreck and is in a major need of a top to bottom cleaning. I seriously hate looking at it and just want to leave the house some days.

I am grouchy and emotional over the stupidest things. And yes I know this all leads back to depression.

I have gone to the doctor several times and I am on medication. I have been on medication for it since 2001. I have expressed that I feel more depressed than usual but I feel like I am ignored or maybe they just plain think I am crazy!

So, I have come to the conclusion that I am going to have to pick myself up all by myself and get out of this deep hole I have fell into.

I seriously should write on my blog more because this is really the only place I can talk about it. No, I don’t have any close friends.

I just don’t want my blog to become some sad sob story that no one wants to read!

So I am done with my rant and I feel better putting it out there! Now to move forward!

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Crazy?!? Me?!?

May 30, 2012 by boundlesshaos

For weeks I feel like I have been walking around aimlessly in a daze.

I have had a lot of moments when I just want to sit down and cry.

I just wish I knew why?

So much has happened in the last month.

We are getting into summer – which is a change we go through each year. (Read below and you will understand the change part!)

My hubby mentioned getting the twins potty trained so they go to preschool for at least two days a week this fall. Once again – change. (See below)

SInce they were born, I have yearned for the day that they were old enough to somewhat do some stuff for themselves. Now that this time has arrived I want to rewind back to when they were babies.

Then I think about that concept and decide maybe I don’t want to go that far back. Maybe just freeze time now??

Having twins changed my life. I don’t want to make it sound like it was an awful experience but it was a short lived hell. I can’t lie. Would I do it all over again? Definitely.

My husband graduated from his 7 months of 5 days a week training for his new firefighting job.

He started actually working the 24 hour shifts at the beginning of the month.

Now this may sound crazy…..but I worried myself to death those first few days he worked. Wondering what he was doing, if he was okay and what it was like.

You see I don’t handle change real well. I like things to be done a certain way. I like our life to have a routine for the most part. When you throw in a new job – well it just throws me into a flurry of worry.

Is that crazy? I eventually adjust but that first little bit is hard for me and its not even my job!

I have always been that way. Changing things in our lives scares the hell out me. I mean why fix something thats not broke??

I know we have to change things as we go through life. It just takes me a little longer to adjust than most people.

I am getting there slowly. In a few months this will all seem routine and I will look back and call myself crazy like most of you are right now!

My hubby doesn’t or should I say wouldn’t get the whole “I can’t deal with change ordeal” So essentially he just thinks I am crazy with all my ups and downs over the last month.

He’s use to crazy though. I mean some of my antics don’t come much crazier! :)

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Pour Your Heart Out: Life Is So Short

May 29, 2012 by boundlesshaos

Pour Your Heart Out….

We are almost at the end of June and the last time I updated was the beginning of May….

All I can say is that life has seemed to have gotten the best of me.

The job training for my hubby is finally completed and he is actually working his 24 hour shifts now!!

Over the last seven months I have complained, been a crybaby, wished for more help and just plain out thought I had it bad. Yes, it has been hard taking care of all the kids essentially by myself. There have been days where I have felt like locking myself in a room just to get some quiet time to myself.

Then I hear about 2 families that live in my small town. Each had the same type of tragedy happen to them within just a weeks time.

The first family was a young couple who just had their first child 3 months earlier. The mother actually has a blog (2CAMSINMYLIFE). I found the blog after I went to the father’s Facebook page to see what happened. I went to school with the father. He was a few grades behind me but I remember him.

I read her blog and it broke my heart. She was over the moon to have this precious baby enter their lives and within a blink of an eye it was all taken away by SIDS. After the births of all 5 of my children, SIDS was always my biggest fear. I cannot imagine her pain but I admire her strength. I miscarried in 2008 at 17 weeks and I was devastated. It took me so long just to leave the house. But this mother and father actually had their child with them for 3 months before she was taken. Life just is not always fair.

Then to hear of another young mother who lost her 3 month old over the weekend, it just really hits home hard.

I have complained and I can guarantee they would give anything to be able to complain. It breaks my heart. My mind just keeps going back to them and thinking of the pain they must be going through.

So, now when I have a bad day and the kids are really working my last nerve, these two precious families come to my mind and it really doesn’t seem so bad.

My heart goes out to these two families. I pray that God will give them the strength they need to get through this.

 

**I have had these families on my mind so much that I want to help them with earning money towards SIDS research and prevention. The first mother I spoke about even had a yard sale this past weekend and donated the entire amount to this research. I will have some details coming later so watch for them.

 

**Update: You can make a donation through First Candle in the name of Camden K. Lafkin for the prevention and research of SIDS.

First Candle Donations

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